Sunday, August 7, 2011

I really like two people, and it's actually making me pretty upset.?

I know it sounds ridiculous, please don't be patronizing or condescending about it. I love these two guys I know. One I have known for four years, not too well, but we've been pretty close lately. He likes the same stuff as me, we get on pretty well and everything. We text a lot, he's funny and nice, but sometimes with him I feel nervous, and can't think what to say, so there are awkward pauses and then I feel kind of stupid. But he really likes me back, and I reaaaalllly like him back too. We're not together, but I guess its going to happen, and everyone we know knows about it and expects it. Sometimes he's over the top, and doesn't know when to stop with things though, and can be a bit harsh sometimes, and even though you know he's messing around, its still is pretty bad. The other guy, I have known for the same amount of time, but we've been close for around 2 and a half years. We know each other really well, there's never awkwardness, and he's so funny and nice, and everyone adores him as a friend. We text loads, we see eachother almost every day, and get on so easily. He's basically my best guy friend, and he says I'm his best girl friend too. People know we're really good friends, but don't expect anything more, like with guy no.1, but I've told my best friends and they all say I go so much better with guy no.2. The problem with guy 2 is that I know he's been texting my friend loads as well. He mentions her fairly often, teases me that she's his best girl friend now. I know he's teasing, but I get secretly quite jealous. Which is stupid. But I don't know if he likes me back like I do him or not. I asked him if he really liked my friend, and he said no, but I still can't help wondering. I know I'd go better with guy 2, but I don't know if he likes me back, and I still have feelings for guy 1. I know he likes me back, and it would upset me so much to know I hurt his feelings. I'm hurting now too and I feel stupid because it sounds so tragically cliched... so sorry for the looooongness of this. But I'm freaked out about the whole situation. And don't know what to do.

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